Paint in paint

 Recently I have seen this series of picture in internet.

A drawing of himself drawing himself drawing.

This is impressed me with the way he express his art.

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I think there are some message that he want bring to the society through the drawing.

What I see is, we have different us in our mind,

some are under subconscious, some are living the inner part of us.

We do know what we want and who we are,

just the society only allow us to show the part that everyone accepted,

Let the other side of us living in the drawing, let it remind who we are.

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呕

做assignment 做到我要呕了，呕了，呕了！！！！！！！！

Dream in Dream

Last week, I dreamt a dream, in the dream, I dreamt another dream,

which three layer of dream.

Sound like the movie - Inception huh?

right, it does but just not that mystery and miserable like the movie.

They said dreams come from our subconscious mind, it reflect what we want inside our heart or reflect by what we did in the daily life.

But, I never want to chase by some kind of alien or chase by people in my life before.

So, the statement not really work on me.

But one thing that I have to admit is, 

dreams contain a powerful source of creativity, 

if my dream is a movie, that would be  AWESOME. 

力量

化悲愤为力量，然而这种力量常常维持不久，就像减肥一样。

Mirror

We look at the Mirror everyday,It helps to clean up and check our appearance.

It reflect our image, it reflect the other side of us.

Like the step mother in Snow White' story,
she likes to listen to the mirror said that she is the most beauty woman in the world.
Put it back into our reality world, the man in mirror is reflecting the inner side of us,
saying something that we likes to hear, make up our mind to make ourselves to feel good. 

So,  if you don't like what the mirror show you,

don't forget they can't reflect our soul,

take a look on it and make a change.

Life is like a mirror , it never reflects more than we can put into it.

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Ustar之旅。

Quote Johnson 讲的一句：“昨晚就好像梦一场，醒来了也有点那么的不踏实。”

真的，昨晚就像一场梦，一场我梦了很久很久的梦。

我喜欢唱歌，

从小学3三级就开始参加大大小小的比赛到现在，都有12年了。

可是，12年里，我只得过两次安慰奖和一次潜质奖。

后来到了中三开始，有时止步于决赛，有时止步于初赛，甚至有时止步于选拔赛。

过去我对唱歌抱有很大很大的热诚，

看清事实后，对歌唱失去了那种热诚，不再抱有任何希望，只是我不曾放弃。

今年ustar开始报名时，fennie叫我参加，

我心想，前一届我连audition都过不到，不要啦。

可是还是去参加，只是这一次，我因唱歌而唱，不抱着任何希望。

很幸运的，给我进了semifinal,可是天不作美，我跌伤了脚，

我那时想，是不是上天给我指示不要去参加，丢了自己的脸。

朋友们都叫我不要放弃这难得的机会，于是就去了。

我唱了alicia key的 girl on fire.

带着朋友的鼓励，包着脚，上台去。

也很幸运的，我进了初赛，

可是我不是很开心，

听见其他的人也唱得很棒，

我怀疑过，是不是因为同情而让我进。

我替别人感到难过，不值。

又不敢跟朋友说，怕他们讲我进了pattern多多。

也许是生病，受伤让我很低落，想很多。

功课，assignment繁忙，

决赛前几天生了大病，

在学校拿拐杖上课被陌生人嘲笑，

担心脚不能痊愈而要动手术，

等等等等，

身边一大群人可是还是觉得很孤单。

我depressed到极点，

真的是一个极点，

想要退赛，想到上次zact讲过，我们又没有要当歌星，为什么要参加比赛这样吓自己。

对，我有没有要当歌星，为什么伤了脚也要去参赛？

何苦？

昨天，考完muet,立刻搭van去sungai long比赛，在车上，每个人都好累，都不讲话。

我gang的朋友一个个告诉我今晚不能来，

我更低落。。

这种心情持续到比赛前，我那时看着电话，心想，我要怎么在这样的心情下唱give your heart a break?

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你是不是像我在太阳下低头

流着汗水默默辛苦的工作

你是不是像我就算受了冷漠

也不放弃自己想要的生活

你是不是像我整天忙着追求

追求一种意想不到的温柔

你是不是像我曾经茫然失措

一次一次徘徊在十字街头

因为我不在乎 别人怎么说

我从来没有忘记我

对自己的承诺 对爱的执著

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这首歌那时就一直徘徊在我耳边。

rehearsal时，anchee打了过来，妈妈打了过来，朋友们一个接一个发了信息来，

心渐渐暖起。

朋友们进来找我，给我打气，我的foundation老师，mr.mok也来了！！

我很感动，不再失落。

到了比赛开始，我看见一群熟悉的脸孔走了进来，

我的朋友来了！！

我很想哭，真的，谢谢你们。:,)

还有早走的jave, tong 还有 ken!!

depressed 全走！！！

现在就以开心的心情写部落格！！

昨天我单化妆就化了35分钟啊！！！！！

不过不错，头发也是！！

比赛开始，个个都很厉害，

真的，我喜欢jolynn的摇滚，johnson的柔情，scofield的头发，哈哈，没有，是他奔放，jacky的热情，shaoying的坦荡荡，还有其他人的表演!!

又这么幸运的，我进了6强，

其中4强都来自pj,那就是我，jolynn, jacky, 还有 johnson!!

全部都 J 开始我是不是要叫 jia lak liao? 

哈哈

最后一回合我唱了大火，

灯光打在我脸，没带眼镜，我看不清楚台下的人，

我抬头看空无一人的二楼，

想着受伤后那低落的时候，

顺着情绪唱完整首歌，

这是我12年来，我唱得最满意的一次，

唱的时候，我的心真的很痛，最后，伴随着音乐落幕，掌声响起，我把我的情绪留在台上，随歌声音乐走去。

这样，已经够了，我很满意了。

最后，我得了第二名，

人生中唱了十二年的歌，第一次真正的名次，可惜没有奖杯,不过没关系，我有很棒的回忆！！

我觉得值得了，

多么想回到过去，告诉那个因为比赛输了而哭泣的人，你梦想在多年后实现了，只是你发现，输赢已经不重要了。

有支持你的家人，有支持的你的朋友，有几位肯定你声音的人，有愿意听你唱歌的人，已经够了，就赢了。 :)

我们都是赢家！！

不要放弃！！

第一名是来自setapak campus的mr.bean, 第三名是pj的 jolynn!!

其中一个评审时M-girls的妮妮啊！！！很美很瘦啊！！！

我才发现，我唱的歌都跟火有关，semi的girl on fire, final的大火，哈哈

谢谢你们的支持与鼓励，没有你们，我做不到，谢谢！！！

谢谢帮过我的人，衷心谢谢你们，谢谢筹委，谢谢大家,谢谢 :)

anchee说，不跌倒过，怎么知道自己会弹得几高? 

我终于明白这句话真正的意义 :)

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我知道我的未来不是梦
我认真的过每一分钟
我的未来不是梦
我的心跟着希望在动

跟着希望在动

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final-大火

Rainbow

:"You can't have a rainbow without a little rain.",

this is what we always heard from people. But, nope, rainbow is always there for us.

Last sunday,I went to a restaurant for lunch,and I saw this colourful windmill above my head.

At the moment I look at the windmill, something just poping out in my mind, 

so I went to popular to buy water colour and start doing it once it i home.

I painted on my wall fan, with red, yellow and blue.

I was wonder whether it will work anot, but, tha-laa!!

This is the outcome. I make a rainbow, fan DIY succeed!!

Everytime when it spin up, a rainbow show up.

Seeing it spin around make me feel happy,

it is like a hope, I make a rainbow, anything could happen.

都会过去

很久很久很久没有写部落格，现在写，都是因为功课需要或者很伤心时。

“多么希望未来的我告诉现在的我，都过去了，都没事了，都熬过了。”

上个星期五，这么从学校楼梯一摔，还以为只是扭伤，结果怎么知道这么一摔，会摔得那么严重。

做很多事都需要帮忙·，我不喜欢。。

昨天，在看了两个医生后还是很肿，更严重，于是就到医院去。

照了镜片，医生说骨被拉出来了，要做手术，脑海里出现许多what if,

一直责怪自己这么那么大意，怎么那么不小心。。

坐在轮椅上，自己一个人，眼泪不知觉的流。。任由护士推我去不同的部门，见不同的医生。。

人们眼睛一直投射向我。。

电话一直响，爸爸的，妈妈的，姑姑的。

我的心真的很乱，不知道该怎么办。

回到家，家人再带我去看骨科医生，医生说不必做手术，它是骨裂，它会自行恢复。

为了更确定，我再去大医院再给医生看，

医生说先放石膏一个星期，如果到时它会自行好，就不必做手术，若不会，就。。

如果自行好也要3个月才能复原。

一个星期不能走动，只能休息，很多很多很多东西都不能吃，要戒口几个月，我最喜欢的鸡也不能吃。。。

走路也需要依靠拐杖，坐着也要把脚抬起来。

啊！！！！我真的很depressed....

我以为，我以为，结果我以为的都只有我以为。。

不能不能，要想postitive!!!!!!!!!

它会好的，会好的！！！

只要一句问候，真只需一句，我就很足够了。。

算啦，庄淑仪，加油！！！！

嘴角上扬，好事才回来！！

休息是为了走更长的路，这休息这么久，一定是上帝安排，好让我准备好走更远，更长的路！！

Everything is ok in the end, if it's not ok, then it is not the end :)

The sprained leg on stage.

I twisted my right foot on last Friday, fell down the stair in my school.

Because of this, doctor said it could take two weeks to a month to recover, which means that i will not able to walk like a normal person in this period.

I need to walk support by crutch or helping by people.
This is really inconvenience, troublesome and sad.

Now I understand the feeling of disable person, everybody stare as I walk by.

Some with sympathy, some with curiously, some with whisper...

I don't know how to say, I really don't like this feeling.

I am so admire disabled person,they need to accept all these thing and continue their life.

Some even live with excellent achievement, like Nick, man without hands and legs.

The only key to success is never give up hope, anything could happen.
The next day after I sprained my leg is semifinal of my singing competition.

I was so struggle whether to continue join or quit in this situation.

But then i remember Nick quote, no legs, no hands, no worries.

If you want it, just go get it.

I want it, I went, and I get into final.

We all have the ability to achieve something, the thing is whether the we WANT to or not WANT to try.

We shouldn't feel depressed or lost hope in life while we lost something else.

Instead, we must accept it and moving on.

With hope, anything is impossible.

Handmade Craft

Sewing is my hobby, and I never stop passion on it. Ideas are everywhere, it can comes from a movie, food or things around us. Ideas mixed with imagination, here are the results, these handmade craft might not be perfect but each of them are unique. Here's a fact about handmade, there are no 100% similarity between two handmade craft, even though it look exactly same and make by a same person. 

Bread Man

The little avengers

As well as human, there are no two humans being are exactly alike. Thus, It inspire me to be myself, because I am unique.